Pushing Ahead

Where to begin? Last week was C3 camp for Maddie Grace, I will say I was very apprehensive about sending her to camp, for those who have not heard of C3 it is a week long camp from 7:45 – 5 everyday, the camps are held all over the US by Winshape which is an outreach program of Chick-fil-a, it is a non-denominational Christian camp, if you have a chance you can google it and read all about it. My reservations had everything to do with Maddie Grace being able to handle days that long and, be away from us as well. She did great for the most part, I know that she really enjoyed, although by Friday which is a half day at camp and family day, she was worn out completely. Not only did she have C3 all day she then had swim lessons at night, you didn’t hear much from her once her tiny head hit the pillow at night. We hope that things like this will help build her self confidence.
Kyle and I headed to Augusta to the RE (reproductive endocrinologist), as I had said we really were hoping for good news or at least ideas on what new direction we should take. So after the long drive and 1 hour in the doctor we came out more befuddled than when we went in, and very discouraged. Essentially being told we could repeat what we had been doing but that was about it. But for those that know me well you know that I do not take being told no very well and I am the queen of research.( To the point that when Zach was in the hospital I had a doctor tell me, he was going to take away my computer). I knew what options were out there and what was possible for us. That left Kyle and I with a huge decision to make, we could walk away and give up, try the same medications we had been or demand that we be given the chance to try the other meds and if not then move on to another doctor that will. So after lots a prayer and long conversations we decided to press for the other meds in hopes that this might give us the boost we need to have a baby. Although we are very aware that there are risks, we also know that if we do not try chances are 10 years from now we will have regrets and wonder if we should have and I do not want to have regrets. But after a week of waiting for the doctors reply to our decision we have had not had a reply and my patients has started to run thin.
We did have a few relaxing days at the lake over the 4th with my whole family, we had a great time we enjoyed the new boat even though the lake was VERY choppy because of all of the boats. The lake house is in perfect view of the annual fireworks show that a neighbor puts on every year, it rivaled some of the shows we saw at night at Disney world, I think he spends somewhere between 30 and $50,000 people from all over the lake area to see them well worth seeing if you are ever at Lake Blackshear on the 4th. We had a little family birthday party for Maddie Grace, I can not believe my little girl is tuning 6 on Wednesday, it seems like yesterday I held that tiny 5lb baby in my arms for the first time. Time has gone by to fast and she has had to face so much in the last year and half. We are so lucky to have her though, she is such a wonderful child and honestly I am not sure how we were so blessed to have her. She will have her big birthday on Wednesday, a princess tea party that she is more than excited about. Seeing all of the girls play reminded me that Zach would be 18 months now, I wonder what he would be like, if he would have been a big boy running around on the heels of his sister.
One other quick update the baby that I have asked all of you to pray for, Ellen, is a little more stable but still having some problems with infection, if you didn’t read before Ellen is the little girl of a friend of ours she is only 15 months old and had a heart transplant a few weeks ago and has had a rough time since then. Please keep John and Dorothy in your prayers and of course little Ellen, I will let you know as her condition changes but please pray for her to improve dailyf.