A new year, a new day

Yes we are still here and I promise I have not forgotten about our blog. With Christmas and my new restrictions, I have had to learn when to do things and how to better manage my time. I find that I can work a lot since I am sitting in a chair but have a hard time getting my mommy duties done, without the help of Kyle I know I would be stuck.
Christmas was wonderful, Maddie Grace had a great time and it was such a blessing to see her enjoy all that Santa brought. We headed to papa and dede’s that afternoon but had to come back on Sunday afternoon since I have to be at the doctor every Monday morning, more about that later. We all enjoyed spending time together I must say it was one of the best Christmas’ that we have had in the past few years. I did go and see Zach and take some time to talk to him, although going to cemetery was almost more than either of us could take. The pain of not having him with us is almost unbearable. The guilt is playing havoc in my head with having a new baby and somehow I thought going to his grave let him know, yes this is crazy I know he already knew he is having a little brother, but it is for sure a tough mental hurdle for me to jump. New Years was sedate and quiet, we went to spend some time with friends and then headed back home I was a little surprised that we made it up to see the ball drop, but we did in hopes that we will see 2010 be a better year for our family. Maddie Grace did have some major changes during Christmas; she had already lost 2 teeth right before we got out for the holidays and then between New Years Eve and Monday she lost 2 more this times her top 2. She officially has no teeth in front and looks precious; we get a good kick out of listening to her talk. Kyle is doing well although baseball is about to start and we are praying that there are not any more changes to my bed rest status, being married to a coach, time is not always easy to come by during the season, although he has made it very clear that family comes first and he will do what is needed, not that I ever doubted he would, I am very lucky to have him.
As for Samuel, yes that is going to be his name, we cannot figure out a middle name, he is growing and doing very well. He has put some stress and strain on my body and I am having some cervical issues which are why I am on modified bed rest. And I am still losing weight which is totally fine by me, I have plenty of extra meat on my bones but the doctors are not as happy and have now made me drink protein shakes, since I have figured out that one of my triggers for nausea is meat, sounds crazy I know but pregnancy does crazy things to your body. I have to go to the perinatologist every Monday for him to make sure there have been no changes and that he is ok. Samuel has looked great every time, and I will take whatever as long as he is doing well. Almost half way done I cannot believe it, we are almost at the point in my pregnancy when I had Zach, makes me realize what a miracle it was that we had him for the 6 months that we did, I couldn’t imagine not having that time. I know that he has made our family what is now, all of our family. At night I think and pray about when Samuel is born, I honestly have so many fears about how I will react how I will handle those emotions of holding a new baby, a baby boy. Please keep us in your prayers, pray for Samuel that is grows and stays healthy. And yes for those of you that know that story of Hannah and Samuel from the Bible that is why we picked his name, we thought it was fitting.